2009年4月3日 星期五

I look only for him out of the window,

By Goethe.

Caspar_David_Friedrich_Studio_With_Woman



My peace has left me,


My heart is heavy,

I will find it never

and never more.

Where I do not have him,

That is the grave,

The whole world

Is bitter to me.

My poor head

Is crazy to me,

My poor mind

Is torn apart.

My peace has left me,

My heart is heavy,

I will find it never

and never more.

For him only, I look

Out the window

Only for him do I go

Out of the house.

His tall walk,

His noble figure,

His mouth's smile,

His eyes' power,

And his mouth's

Magic flow,

His handclasp,

and ah! his kiss!

My peace has left me,

My heart is heavy,

I will find it never

and never more.

My bosom urges itself

toward him.

Ah, might I grasp

And hold him!

And kiss him,

As I would wish,

At his kisses

I should die!

Ameling 如是唱著Gretchen的"My peace has left me". 

我的目光追隨著她的背影望向窗外

我的腳步跟隨著她的身影走向屋外

沉重的腳步在歌聲前行.

你問我

我像是在向我的情人表白嗎?

啊! 是的

因為在我悸動的心裡藏著愛情

但是, 我

終究知道, 是

愛情讓我們在今生

注定要

分開, 是

愛情讓我們在今生

注定要

帶著思念

走向黃泉

然後Ameling繼續唱著:

There was a king in Thule

faithful even to the grave

to whom his dying sweetheart

gave a golden cup

It was precious to him above all else,

he emptied it at every feast

his eyes would fill with tears

whenever he drank from it

And when he came close to death

he counted the towns in his kingdom

gladly handed it all to his heir

but kept the cup

He sat at his royal banquet

with his knights around him

in the high ancestral hall

there in the castle by the sea

There stood the old tippler

drank up the last vital warmth

and threw the sacred cup

down into the tide

 

He saw it plunged in, drank up the water

and sink deep into the sea

His eyes sank

he never drank another drop.

我不知道為什麼, 這張圖這麼常被用在Schubert的音樂的唱片的封面, 這是Casper的畫作, Studio with woman. 我有四張唱片, 分別是trio, quintet, piano sonata與這張歌曲集, 都用它做封面. 在歌曲集, 我想是因為這張唱片裡的這首歌裡的那句話:

I look only for him out of the window

這個下午, 我帶著病與背痛, 看著考生的資料, 打著下學期的投影片, 我的心也隨著King of Thule沉到海底. 所幸, 最後一首 Ave Maria救了我.

於是, 停下手上的事情, 用20分鐘記錄一下這一刻.